Unwritten

These past year has been one of torture for me. I came out of a very bad relationship which left me swearing that I will never be with another man. It seems I had a knack for picking the real trash where men were concerned. I'm thinking about being with a woman, which I know can be just as bad or worse. If I come across a man I think is gonna do right by me, then I would give him a chance, but the pain, the hurt and suffering I went through, it's gonna take me a while to get to a place where I feel like I can trust me, and people in general any more.

On top of all that, I was unemployed. Looking for a job was like trying to find the gold at the end of the rainbow (y'all know that doesn't exist right??) It's like sending out resumes and replying to the ads in the paper were just a joke. Nobody called, nobody even sent a rejection letter. But, lucky for me I've gotten a break now. It's definitely not my dream job, it's not even remotely close to anything that I would even want to do but it's a job and it's paying my bills now and taking care of me, something that I didn't know would continue since I was on my last. I don't have to supportive family, no friends, so anything I do, I have to do it on my own, make it on my own. I guess that will make me appreciate more when I do achieve.

So, I've taken on a new attitude, the words of this song, Natasha Bedingfield's Unwritten, sums it up perfectly where I am right now and what I intend to do.

"Unwritten"

I am unwritten, can't read my mind, I'm undefined
I'm just beginning, the pen's in my hand, ending unplanned

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

Oh, oh, oh

I break tradition, sometimes my tries, are outside the lines
We've been conditioned to not make mistakes, but I can't live that way

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten

Oh, yeah, yeah